March 28, 2006
random rant...?
i'm going to talk about a whole lot of nothing, which means only 1 thing... you guessed it, exam time! on the menu this time? calcium balance, with a side of liver and pancreas physiology; diabetes as a starter and pregnancy for dessert.
today's inspiration for a post? none other than the genius' who write/created house. don't tell me you didn't see it! well, fear not, the gist of the episode surrounds a guy with pulmonary fibrosis gradually progressing to kidney and heart failure. the real topic of the episode however, is about true love? how do they do it?
anyway, the male patient comes in with his wife, and they portray the picture perfect marriage. the couple that met each other as children, grew up together, and have always been so desperately in love. the couple, that all of us dream of becoming, but so many of us fail to achieve. house and that cute girl doctor go so far as to bet whether the couple's love is genuine; house is convinced that the wife is poisoning the husband, the cute girl doctor thinks it's some kind of autoimmune disease.
everyone has lofty expectations of finding "sunshine and uber happiness", but how realistic is that? it happens, i know it happens, but does it happen for a life time?
as sad as it is, most of will eventually have to be realistic, and find someone that will make us just happy. find someone that will help us achieve a fulfilling life, and put aside the notion of true happiness. but just think! just think of a world where you're blissfully happy. i mean, i'm not saying your marriage won't have problems, but you're so much in love, and so happy most of the time, that working through problems would be as easy as teaching newton's first law to hawking.
to be completely honest, and as naive as it sounds, i haven't lost hope for me, or anyone for that matter. it's out there. but just as with anything in life, it takes some determination, a dash of patience, a little bit of pain and a lot of going in circles.
someone kick me in the head if i'm still like this when i'm 40.
oh yeah. just in case you're wondering, house won the bet. gold was the heavy metal of choice for the poisoning.
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March 26, 2006
the day when...
i can't wait for the day i no longer need to use the steph's escort service.
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March 21, 2006
i like...
i really like homemade chili. it's so amazingly easy to make, and so tasty too. sour cream and cheese are key though. as irene would say, it brings the chili to a "whole new level"
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you know what?...
i've discovered that people need to learn perspective. they need to learn how to sit back, think and then calmly approach a situation. WHOA! this coming from ivan?? i mean, he's the king of charging into a situation like a raging bull, isn't it? i won't deny that i'm like that sometimes. but when it's a matter of the heart, or of other people's hearts for that matter, i'm not so quick to judge.
i think people need to learn to talk to someone, before coming to conclusions about them. it's the worst feeling in the world, when you're told how awful you are without any rhyme or reason. just that you are an awful person.
it's like if we were on the playground and some kid runs up to you and says "I HATE YOU!!!!" and then runs away giggling and laughing.
i think that many years of friendship deserves explanation and discussion before accusations. because, what made you think so badly of someone in the first place, may have been miscommunication and half-truths. don't you think it's only fair to try to interpret those half-truths with those involved before posting it for the world to see, and accusing others?
i don't know. i just don't know. i know i don't need this. i know i was shoved into a situation i never wanted to be in, and handled it the best way i could. apparently, best isn't good enough. it's not only not good enough, it's worth being slammed over.
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March 19, 2006
how far is too far?...
on the way back from a seemingly endless ride back from montreal, a brief topic of conversation was about when lying is appropriate. what defines how much you care about someone? is it ok to lie to someone, if you know it'll make it easier for them, and it'll make them happier in the long run? for me...i find that i have to be true to myself. i don't want to lie or even act, to make someone else feel better about themselves. do you think that's selfish of me? it seems that maybe i'm not lying, or acting, because i don't want the other person to think badly of me, and maybe that's why i refuse to lie. or am i not doing those things because i simply don't want to lie? it's a fine line really, and i'm not really sure where on the spectrum i lie.
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March 17, 2006
it can't be that hard...
why is it that hard to duplicate montreal smoked meat sandwiches and authentic poutine here in toronto? i mean.... did schwartz keep their recipe so top secret that nobody exactly knows what's in it? i just feel like... someone must have figured out the secret to those things, and if someone were to bring that to toronto, it would make a killing. mmmm..... fatty smoked meat sandwiches. that sandwich made me like mustard, and i've never liked mustard.
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March 09, 2006
boooooorrrrreeeeddddd...
goodness. i am so unbelievably bored. went to lecture this morning, decided that it would be to my benefit to skip the entire afternoon. i was wrong. i don't even know what to do with myself. did the laundry. watched a movie on my laptop. wandered around my apartment. after 3 days of exercise, i'm too sore to go down to the gym. it's too crummy outside to take a walk. i'm too lazy to do just about anything. i'm too lazy to find stuff to download on the internet for goodness sake. i don't even have any plans for tonight so i can keep myself occupied. i'm gearing up for.... even more free time during march break.
5 hours of completely free time is already too much, i don't know how you people do it when there's nothing to do at work. i'm, borderline going crazy.
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March 07, 2006
option a or option b...
i wonder if challenging times in our lives comes as a result of time, or because we have nothing better to do, so we give ourselves challenges. does that even make any sense? i find myself making less and less sense every day.
ok, maybe i'll try and be more clear. i find that my life goes through ups and downs like rhythms. life is good for a long time, everything seems to be going your way and all of a sudden, bam, things aren't going so well, things get complicated, and you soon find yourself wondering how you got yourself into that mess in the first place. my question is, when things go sour, is it because you're bored, and you subcontiously look for a little spice in your life? ie. creating drama for yourself. that seems like a viable, but scary thought. the fact that you make your life more difficult, give yourself challenges, because life is so simple, too simple. actually, when i put it like that, it doesn't sound that weird.
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