December 20, 2003
dazed and confused...
do you know what i hate? i hate regret. i rarely regret anything. but right now, i regret wearing my heart on my sleeve. what an idiot i was for doing so, what a fool i must have looked like. what makes me even more angry, is that i could have avoided looking like such a fool if someone had just said one simple line to me. one not-so-difficult sentence would have saved me from numerous incidents of complete idiocy. and to make a bad thing even worse, the way i found out i was such an idiot was disgustingly embarrassing and borderline insulting. hmmm. this sucks. it really does. but i'm not going to be a baby about it. life goes on. i'm going to get over it. kudos to all! after an exciting and eventful few days in toronto, it's time for me to spend Christmas away from home for the first time in a very long time. i'm heading to florida tomorrow, so i wanted to wish everyone a very ***MERRY CHRISTMAS!!*** and a *HAPPY NEW YEAR!!* i'll see you all soon. take care. | December 13, 2003
current song obsession...
currently obsessed with delerium and leigh nash's Run for It. i need to get it out of my head. it was running through my head during the reaction kinetics exam. definately not a good thing. ps. right click on link and press save as if you want to download it. | December 12, 2003
call display, the internet and technology in general...
remember the good 'ol days? when the internet wasn't a part of our lives? and call display was really just a luxury that rich people had? i remember when if you liked a girl, you had to actually call her if you wanted to talk, rather than hiding behind a wall of technology. getting nervous, calling, and then getting all disappointed if she wasn't there, what happened to all of that? i have a love-hate relationship with the idea of call display. i've had call display on my cell phone for as long as i can remember, but i lost it about 4 months back because telus suddenly realized they were giving it to me for free. since i'm too cheap to pay for call display myself, i decided i'd see how life is without it. 4 months without it and i've decided that not having it is just fine by me. on a larger scope, technology has taken us a step back from human interaction, and even though i've been told this, i'm really starting to realize it now. it's time for me to fight back. more phone calls for me! pretty girls and brain mush i read an article in the metro today titled "pretty girls makes guys brain turn to mush". okay, that wasn't exactly the title, but it was pretty close. a researcher in hamilton showed males a picture of either a hot girl or a not-so-attractive girl. then they were asked to roll dice and if they got a double, they got the choice of either $15-35 the next day, or $50-80 within 3 months (those weren't the exact numbers, but you get the idea). anyway, males who saw the hot girl were SIGNIFICANTLY more likely to choose the $15-35, then the males who were shown the not-so-attractive girl. to prove even further that males are shallow, the same test was done for girls, and no difference in choice was noticed. i find it pretty funny that a university professor actually went out and tried to prove that males are shallow. | December 10, 2003
well, that was brutal...
just finished writing my stats exam and my head kind of hurts. this was supposed to be the EASY exam before writing reaction kinetics and thermo II. both of which should be ridiculously hard. stats was not easy. not easy at all. following up on last day's post. i was going to say that it bothers me how there's simply some things that can't be said on my blog because you know that the entire world has access to it. i really find it amazing how some people (ahem herb), who can post just about anything on their site without even flinching. i started this site with the intention of keeping track of my life so that ten year's down the road i can read all this stuff and laugh. i like the fact that other people read this, otherwise i wouldn't have an online journal and i'd keep a private one. but there are certain things that i would just like to vent out in anger or shout out in joy that i know i can't. much to the dismay of cam, i've gotta keep this blog rather mellow, and avoid putting anything that can cause possible future confrontations or awkward situations. | December 09, 2003
ivan and healthy living? no, it can't be...
so in my 20, almost 21, years of existence, i've always been one to eat whatever i want, whenever i want. not only that, i've always wanted to eat greasy, meaty, generally unhealthy food. if it wasn't for mom's cooking, i'd probably never eat vegetables. the only reason i'm not well over 200 lbs is because of the well documented asian metabolism and my habit of playing a lot of sports. ever since university started, my eating habits haven't changed, and obviously the fact that i'm chinese hasn't either, but sports has gone way down in my priority list. so for two years of university i've lived a very unhealthy lifestyle. something has changed over the past 3 months since 3rd year started. all of a sudden, irene's "cravings for a good salad" aren't just the insane rantings and ravings of your typical female. granted, given the choice between a club salad and prime rib w/ a side of garlic mashed, i'd still pick the meat. but given the choice between a big mac combo and a club salad, the salad wins easily. i even find myself drinking water! *gasp* i know that it sounds crazy that i'm not living off a diet of iced tea and orange juice, but i definately find myself reaching for a bottle of water more often now. to top it all off, i'm finding myself at the gym much more often. i find that running 5km at the AC or playing squash for an hour not only helps me sleep at night, but gives me a great deal of energy the next day. the weird thing is that i'm not consciously trying to live a healthier lifestyle, it's just sort of happened. i don't tell myself: "don't eat mcdonalds because it's going to make you fat" because i'd just rather not eat mcdonalds cause it's gross. i wonder what has brought upon this change in me... i have a pretty good idea, but maybe i shouldn't say... which really brings me to another topic for tomorrow... | December 07, 2003
it's never so clear...
i find my mind is so vividly clear during exams. it's during this time that i think everything in my life is suddenly under a bright light. it's something i never really experience at any other time during the year. it's as if all the mathematical formulaes, equations and theories that are stuck in my head from studying, somehow sharpen my mind to a whole new level, beyond school work. thoughts about life, love, friends and family are sorted through with great simplicity and ease and everything EXCEPT homework makes so much sense to me. i better take advantage of this while it lasts and jot down everything that has come to me in the past few days and will come to me over the next week or so. i also better not get too pre-occupied with this and make sure my school work is as crystal clear as the rest of my life. sports in toronto... it's a great time to be a sports fan in toronto. leafs have an 8 game winning streak and the raptors a 4 game winning streak. but i'm not jumping on the bandwagon quite yet, both teams have made me cynical via disappointing me time and time again during the past few years. | December 03, 2003
pictures as promised
i'm a big idiot and i've been posting all my pictures all wrong. they've been turning up fuzzy and they haven't even been in a low resolution. i discovered a much better way of posting them and they should be clearer and load much faster now. ENJOY!      
PS. pictures are great. it is my goal to take A LOT this christmas holiday. |
time for a bit of reflection...
tomorrow is the last day of my 5th semester of university. looking back at my time in undergrad, i have to say that i'm very satisfied thus far with the undergraduate experience. from classes, to learning, to friends, everything has been fantastic. interest in blogs i wonder why people like reading other people's blogs so much. i think it's the gossiper in all of us that makes us go. but perhaps it's just a genuine interest in the way other people are. let's face it, we don't get to see a lot of our friends all the time, so it's the best way to keep in touch with their lives. i love the idea of blogs. although blogs definately don't define personalities, i think that most people would agree if i said that blogs strongly reflect the writer's personalities. favorite movie lists after being buried under a pile of rxn kinetics for the past few days, i want to make a favorite movie lists. now, this list is probably not completely accurate, as i try to remember different movies i've seen in the past. TOP 5 Movies: 1. Braveheart 2. Shawshank Redemption 3. The Fifth Element 4. Cider House Rules 5. Spirited Away | December 02, 2003 |
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