March 29, 2005
randomness...
as much as i appreciate simon and herb for introducing me to the stars, they've slowly consumed my mind. i think it's because i'm spending entirely too much time on my laptop making presentations and writing my thesis, so i'm always listening while i'm working. between that and my iPod, the stars are on my mind all the time. there's just an endless number of good songs between heart and set yourself on fire. i'm curious to see if i can find someone who really hates the stars.
spending excessive amounts of time doing work brings out the worst in me. i start feeling paranoid about all sorts of irrelevant things. yesterday i woke up in the middle of the night and thought "did i send presentation #4 to prof balke yet?" followed by thinking "man, i should have never said that 3 years ago at steph's bbq...". it's all so random.
i haven't had mcdonalds in what seems like forever. i shaved my head. i've become a bit of a gym rat, feeling the compulsion to spend 1 hr on the stationary bike on most days. gonna run an 8K race for easter seals this sunday. gonna kick irene's ass at that race.
i also watched that special on bloorview on saturday night. i'm sure i'm probably the only one who watched it out of all of you... oh well. it was well worth it. it really made me miss working with those kids. it's been so long... like 4 years in fact. i gotta get myself back there soon. forget with my excuses, just go volunteer! it takes no time at all. i wonder what kind of doctor that woman at bloorview was.... i want to be that kind of a doctor... a paediatric... somethingologist
i like how most people i know are inherently good people. they all have a soft spot in their heart for something good. katie's all about underpriveleged kids. bri's devotion to bloorview after all these years is inspiring. i'm sure the list goes on. irene's new found soft spot is old people. that sentence came out weird.
i'm spending good chunks of time thinking of what kind of questions the profs can ask me at my defence this thursday. sometimes i wonder, why am i doing this? there is no way i can possibly predict what kind of questions they can ask me! although my meeting with molly a few weeks back and my meeting with jordan, my post-doc supervisor, today was very encouraging. both told me i had enough to write a journal article. it's nice to know that i've spent 12 months of my life working towards something that's worthy of being published in the scientific community... now if i had enough will power to actually write the article after my thesis is done. that's a different story.
i think the the sheer length of this post will turn people off reading it. we'll see i guess.
i think this webpage needs a total makeover. i'm getting pretty sick of this boring blog template. i also don't like where it's being hosted, i wish i had my members.rogers.com webspace back. rogers is dumb.
ever notice that Easter almost always has great sunny weather? a coincidence. i think not.
i officially think that DaVinci's Code is the definition of the the word 'cheap thrills' for literature. i mean, it's fun and all. it has punch and it's bold. but it's really... just cheap thrills. oh well, maybe it's what i need. a book that i can read without having to think too much.
a morbid thought: ever wonder who would turn up at your funeral if you died say... tomorrow? who would say the eulogy? i'm sure some of you have thought about this.
i'm currently debating whether to go back to Camp BUCKO. as much fun as it was, it was not exactly the same as working for easter seals. most popular comment to me after showing friends/family pictures from BUCKO last year: "they don't even look burned..." and it's true, a lot of them didn't look burned. but it's amazing what a hard life most of these kids have had. they're mostly from broken families and they have low self confidence. don't judge a book by it's cover i guess. i wonder being burned was an effect of the broken families, or was the broken family an effect of being burned. hmmm..... i think i should go back... i've had some kids msn me asking me to go back. but really, i want to go back to see dennis, my co-counsellor. see post from august/september for my thoughts about him. inspirational guy.
you know i have a lot of work to do if my posts are this long...
i also wonder which university friends i'll keep in touch with years down the road. honestly, i've lost touch with some friends from high school that i didn't think i would lose touch with. and i've become distant to a few more that i thought i would be close to. time's a strange thing.
it seems so selfish that my only goal this summer is to have stupid amounts of fun. it seems so... unproductive. and unlike me. but that's all i feel like doing. it's all i want to do. selfish indeed.
oh well. i'm gonna be selfish this time. i'm gonna enjoy my summer. i can't wait to go to asia.
and i'm gonna end that post on that note. it seems that recently all my thoughts end with a notion about how much fun going to asia is gonna be.
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March 24, 2005
nothing to do on a saturday night?...
SATURDAY MARCH 26th 7PM. W-5 on CTV.
it's the inspirational story of the kids at bloorview macmillan center. one of the people they interview in dr. tom chau, a uoft and waterloo alum, and an ibbme (my current department) member. i seriously considered working for him for grad school, maybe it's not too late...
watch it guys, consider it a favour to me!
"The sky's the limit for these kids?"
"There is no limit." prof tom chau
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March 20, 2005
on a roll...
what a productive weekend. half my thesis written. bio150 essay finished. the efficient ivan of old is back.
the next 3-4 weeks are going to be a crazy roller coaster of presentations, thesis writing, midterms, assignments and exams. but i don't fear what's coming, because i know it will end sooner than later. i need to savour these moments....
who am i kidding, i don't need to savour these moments, because these moments, school-life that is, is coming back to me for another 4 years starting in september (i hope it's coming back at least).
more importantly, after these 4 weeks, i will be flying to asia. it will be.... a trip of a lifetime, and i'm absolutely giddy with excitement about the prospect of exploring the world with two of my closest friends.
there will be stories to tell.
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March 08, 2005
two months...
i haven't booked my flight out of reality (also known as asia) yet, mostly because i'm still waiting on eric and simon to give me the okay, but this trip has already begun to consume my mind. i want to go. so badly.
i think i feel like this during the stretch run of every year. i get giddy with anticipation for school to be over. but this year, more than ever.
i want to go to asia not only because it'll be an amazing life experience that i need and want, but because when i come back, it'll be a fresh, new and amazing start.
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March 05, 2005
ringed at last...
i only have 1 month left of school and i can't lose focus. i can feel it slowing leaving my body, the focus that is, that i've had so steadily throughout university. this tiny little ring that sits on my baby finger tells me i've already made it, even though i haven't, which is not helping my cause.
i usually hate talking about "my life" as it were. some people love that jazz on their blog: "today i did this and saw so and so". i personally do not like doing that because i want to be able to come back to this blog 5 years from now and see my state of mind more than what i did that day. it's already served that purpose in the 2 years or so i've been writing stuff.
but i need to talk about what i did yesterday because it was quite eventful.
i got ringed yesterday.
props to yvonne for driving all the way here to ring me and making the day more eventful. she even bought me skule alumni beer glasses. very thoughful.
even though i didn't think i would be excited, and i didn't think i'd care, i've become quite fond of this little guy. i'm sure the novelty will wear off, but the ring siginifies so much. i mean, it's suppose to signify the social responsibility engineers have towards society, but right now, it's a sign of 4 years of hard work, unique experiences and as alex mentioned, learning about people.
the after party at the chem common room, followed by O'Grady's followed by Tonic was also quite memorable. looking around during the after parties, i could only see smiles and laughs on my classmate's faces, and it was quite endearing. for so long, our common interests were discussing how much work we had to do and how we were afraid we might fail course x. and of course, i've seen my classmates smile! but to see all of them at once was amusing indeed.
this chapter of my life is almost closed.
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