September 26, 2005
in limbo...
thanks everyone for turning my last post into a full blown make-fun-of-ivan comment discussion.
i wish i was a morning person. that would make school so much easier to survive. now that it's been a month, i'm slowly becoming a morning person. i'm not exhausted when i get to school every day and i can pay attention most of the time, but i'm still not happy when i have to get up at 7am. i also wish i was one of those people that can function perfectly fine on 6 hours of sleep. i can function, but inevitably later in the day, i start to crash and i start itching to find a comfy couch or bed i can nap in. and when i nap, it's usually 2 hours. i wish i could nap for 20 minutes and awake refreshed.
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September 14, 2005
destination: implosion...
i'm setting myself up for disaster.
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September 11, 2005
disillusioned...
i'm blogging. that can mean only one thing: i'm also trying to study. but i can't think of a better time to reflect upon my first 3 weeks into a new endeavour. i hate to overdramatize my time thus far in med school, but it has definately been quite a ride. it's starting to hit me that this is the beginning of a new stage in my life, and i can't believe how fortunate i am to be enjoying it this much. perhaps i'm still in the honeymoon stage of my career: where everything is still novel and therefore still fun. to an extent this must be true, i can't be liking medicine this much for the rest of my life, can i? who knows, but at this point, i'm thoroughly enjoying all that i'm learning and the great atmosphere that school provides. the sheer size of my class allows me the flexibility of doing whatever makes me most happy: striking my balance between work and fun. i can draw from those in my class who insist upon studying all the time and still be able to go out and enjoy myself with those in my class who feel med school is just a small part of their life.
if 2 weeks of school is any indication of how much i'm going to learn over the next 4 years, i can't even imagine how much knowledge my brain can cram. we've gone through so much in 2 weeks of school. amazing even to myself, i don't find myself lost in the mix. it's so much easier to learn when you're so interested in what's going on around you.
i can't help but compare my start here to my start in engineering. i'll be honest, i didn't love my first few weeks or even first few weeks of engineering. but i slowly learned to love engineering and my classmates. everyone always notes that once you've been through engineering, medicine will be a breeze. although there is some truth to that, it's really all about perspective. the great thing about medicine so far is that everything is right in front of you. here is what you need to learn, learn it. there is not a whole lot to "figure out", it's mostly just about taking the time to read it. engineering is about figuring things out. most things will make very little sense the first time you read it, and even less time after 5 times. in that respect, engineering is harder. but the sheer volume of things to keep track in your mind for medicine is mind boggling and i still have to get use to it.
i hope that the reverse doesn't happen in medicine as it did in engineering: that i since i loved the first few weeks of meds, will i learn to hate it over the next 4 years? i can't imagine i will, but you never know.
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